thoughts and speech

why do i always say things that i don't want to? i "good bye"d a person i really wanna talk to...i haven't had a nice chat for a long long long time already...

ME: didnt see you online for so long ady...even if see you also didnt really chat. it's either you busy or i dun have pc to use...everytime also like that wan
HER: i cant chat with u too much ar...i wanna study ar....coz last nite i slept at 9sth pm...havent touch my books oso
ME: ok ler then...studies more important..go study ler...
HER: c ya
ME: sorry to disturb you...enjoy your day!!
HER: u too
ME: my day gonna end ady lor :p

i very much wanted her to stay...oh well...i'm always like this...someone else's stuff is more important than my own...